MY JACT'S 烹 飪 課

2015 07 13

The Glass Menagerie玻璃動物園

去沖繩回來後,請三姝來家裡享用水円麵包.英帶來研究所的同學錦.錦很美麗.才貌兼具.她很慧黠地掃視了一下家裡的書.提到我放在椅子上有兩年的玻璃動物園.當時很迷田納西威廉.去高雄聽音樂會時急乎乎趕去書林買了此書,卻凍了兩年.她一提,我才開始看.欲罷不能.那樣深遂入心的觀察以平易順暢的文字與場景呈現,真了不起.到了這把年紀,加上自身的經歷,我完全瞭解作者在說什麼.讀了心很痛.擔憂,壓迫,指責.母親三步驟.要命的三步驟.喘不過氣來的子女只得另尋出口.抽煙,喝酒,看電影,逃避,耽溺,收藏.Tom迷戀於不用拔釘子就可以逃出棺木的神奇魔術.內心想的是,如何才能脫離母親的掌控.母親說:你不瞭解我的心.兒子說:你也不瞭解我的.我們何不彼此尊重?

人母必讀:

To Kill a Mocking Bird

Of Mice and Man

The Glass Menagerie

Catcher of the Rye

2015 11 12

在Ancient Light中,Banville化身為書中的男主角.一個青春已逝的老男人,絮絮叨叨,令人難忍.難怪我讀得斷斷續續.雖說如此,Banville的文字功力依然一流.三言兩語,說的那樣精準貼切有創意.令我忍不住畫線.

寒冬的蕭條漁港邊,男女主角無言,三件行李擺在餐廳一角.P181

What an ill-assorted pair we must have looked, the obscurely afflicted, stark-faced girl with her scarf and dark glasses, and the grizzled, ageing man sunk in glum unease, sitting there silent in that ill-lit low place above a winter sea, our suitcases leaning against each other in the glass visitbule, waiting for us like a trio of large, obedient and patiently uncomprehending hounds.

Banville被譽為心靈大師,確實,他能透視靈魂: p175

……the feeling of falling somehow into the character I was playing, literally falling, as one might trip and pitch forwards on one’s face, and losing all sense of my other, unacting, self.

P184

Since it seems that nothing in creation is ever destroyed, only disassembled and dispersed, might not the same be true of individual consciousness? Where when we die does it go to, all that we have been? When I think of those whom I have loved and lost I am as one wandering among eyeless statues in a garden at nightfall.

世界如常運轉.p197